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Expression of Grief
« on: December 27, 2009, 11:42:55 AM »

Offline thirstyboots18

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I'm sorry if this is not the place for this, but I am trying to bring closure to my grief.  I do not even know why this has hit me so hard, as Kwan was more of a work/casual friend.

My friend, Kwan Kwok, passed away around Thanksgiving.  Evidently he left Dallas, in a twin engine plane that he had just purchased, heading for Delaware.  He had not informed anyone of his flight plans and was reported missing after Thanksgiving.  His plane was found a few days after that in West Virginia.  At least that is the way I understood the story.  Kwan was 52 years old.

We met Kwan when he was a 18 year old student at M.I.T.  He told me he had come, with his family, to New York when he was 14 years old... he learned to speak English, graduated from high school at 16, and was accepted at M.I.T.  We became friends and that lasted through his receiving his Master's and Doctorate.  We left M.I.T and moved from N.H. to Plymouth, MA.  Kwan came down to see us there a couple times...he taught my daughter, who was then 10 -12  years old, how to make origami swans and little gift boxes, and showed me new guitar riffs.  One time he showed up after another friend of mine had brought a dozen lobsters.  We cooked them up and Kwan, who was not a large man, ate 6 of them.  :D  I think I last talked to Kwan about 12 years ago, when he promised to take me up in his new plane.  It never happened.  We moved to Florida and lost track of each other.

 Rest In Peace, my friend.
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Re: Expression of Grief
« Reply #1 on: December 27, 2009, 11:56:15 AM »

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Your friend sounds like quite the great human being and dear person. My heart goes out to you thirstyboots. May your friend find peace where ever he may now be and that you find comfort in the tremendous memories you have of your friend.

I lost a close, dear friend earlier this year. he was also a great, unique person that died tragically at a young age. It still hurts and will for a long time I am afraid. The only thing I can say is that it hurts less as time passes. That's probably not a solace now but it is true.

RIP Kwan Kwok

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« Reply #2 on: December 27, 2009, 12:27:23 PM »

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I hope that writing it down and sharing it helps brings\ some closure and peace for you TB.  It's hard feeling like you have something left unsaid when someone passes.











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Re: Expression of Grief
« Reply #3 on: December 27, 2009, 12:30:21 PM »

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Thank you Nick.  Kwan truly was remarkable, humble, gentle, sweet.  If you met him you would never guess how brilliant he was.  He never held himself up as better, in any way, than anyone else, and was interested in all opinions...  And, to top it all off, he always brought fun with him.  I tend to hold my friends close, and I regret that we had lost track of each other.  I know life happens and I know that it will get easier.  I am surprised that this has hit me so hard and that I am struggling getting over it.
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Re: Expression of Grief
« Reply #4 on: December 27, 2009, 12:31:39 PM »

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Thank you, Redz
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« Reply #5 on: December 27, 2009, 01:08:20 PM »

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Your friend sounds like a wonderful person.  I am sending you hugs and prayers that expressing your feelings will help with the grief.   

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« Reply #6 on: December 27, 2009, 01:29:02 PM »

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Thank you, FL.   I'm afraid I am using the blog, hoping it will help, too, to honor him and at the same time, to unload some heavy feelings. 
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« Reply #7 on: December 27, 2009, 02:05:22 PM »

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I'm sorry to hear about the loss of your friend, TB, and of your grief.  He sounds like a special and selfless man.  It sounds like your life is better for having known him.

I hope you can find some comfort from the community.  If we can help with your grief in any way, let us know.

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Re: Expression of Grief
« Reply #8 on: December 27, 2009, 02:14:44 PM »

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Thank you, FL.   I'm afraid I am using the blog, hoping it will help, too, to honor him and at the same time, to unload some heavy feelings. 

Being there for others is what this life is about, and there are many here, including myself, who enjoy your contributions and the positive atmosphere that follows you around, TB. I'm so sorry to hear of your loss, and I'll keep you in my thoughts and prayers ... let me know if I can help in any way, and feel free to drop me a PM if you ever need to vent, or just need someone to listen. God bless you and all those affected by this tragedy.
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Re: Expression of Grief
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kinda tuff too find regular good hearted people these days...the time he spent with you and your family says alotta about your friend.....our time here is short and we all need to be kind to everyone around us..Kwan touched everyone around him in a positive way..he left good times in u and his family hearts..

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Thank you, Roy.  Kwan certainly did add a bright color to my life's tapestry...Having the blog as a place to express myself has enriched my life immensely and I value the e-ships (have I coined a new word?) that I have made here.  I believe Kwan has a sister who is now in Holland (? not sure about that) and my heart really goes out to her.  I first heard of his death during a game while I was in the Chat room.  That, in itself, was a blessing to me as it helped me stay on course while my mind and heart processed everything.

And the expressions of support have helped, too.  
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Re: Expression of Grief
« Reply #11 on: December 27, 2009, 02:25:33 PM »

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Thank you, Bahku, Bass_Thumper and everyone.
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« Reply #12 on: December 27, 2009, 03:07:57 PM »

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my prayers are with you in your time of grief.

I think that my last two years in the service were particularly difficult, in that we lost almost a dozen shipmates and we weren't even in a war zone to speak.

One of our helicopters went down off the coast of California during a training mission earlier this year. We lost all 5 crew members onboard. It was so unexpected because our ship had not had anything happen like that for several years. We had completed several deployments to Western Asia, Indian Ocean, and Arabian Gulf over last 3 years and we had never lost an aircraft, so when this happened it was particularly difficult.

On an aircraft carrier of several thousand people, only a few crew members even knew those that were lost. But it still cast a somber mood over all of us, because it was so unexpected.

We also lost several crew members during a training evolution as well..except this tragedy happened when were were pierside. It was in one of our engineering spaces.

For me, when I deployed it was one thing - you pray for the best and expect that once you get in a warzone that things will happen. But when the unexpected happens it's tough.

Again my prayers are with you and wish you the best.

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« Reply #13 on: December 27, 2009, 03:18:28 PM »

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Wow, it's been a while since I lost someone important to me. I think I need to be thankful for that.  :(

I'm very sorry to hear about Kwan, he sounded like a great guy, and I hope memories give you closure.

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« Reply #14 on: December 27, 2009, 03:36:48 PM »

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My condolences on the loss of your friend. Losing people we love is not something we get over. We never get over it. But we learn to incorporate the loss into our lives and keep them close to us in our hearts. My son, Matt, has been gone for more than 3 years now. He was only 23, a casualty of the Iraq war. Grieving for him and our life together is natural and it couldn't be otherwise. Don't fight your grief. Grief is not something you go through, but rather something that goes through you. Talking about it here is the best thing you could have done. We all understand your pain and are with you.