Does anyone really know what they want to do straight out of college? I mean, I have some ideas, but I can't say I'm completely convicted on them. What's worse is that I went to college not to get a "career" but to get one of those "liberal arts" education. Hey, there's nothing wrong with that (that's why I picked it at the time), but it just makes getting a job a lot more difficult (especially one you want to do).
With the walls closing in so to speak, I have noodled with a few ideas. The first is that I've thought about getting a second degree in secondary education (with a focus in history), so I could teach high school. The only problem is I don't know if the commitment here justifies the reward (a high school teacher) because I'm not "completely sold" that's how I would want to spend the rest of my life. I've always respected teachers, like the idea, but I really want to "try it out" more than I want to make it my life. I don't know if I'm masochistic enough to get a second undergraduate degree just to try out a job for a couple/few years.
Second, I've thought applying for Teach For America. Anyone ever heard of it? It's a highly prestigious program where you teach in an impoverished area. You don't need to have majored in education. However, like I said, this is a highly prestigious program. Yeah, my grades are top notch, but that would be no different from any other applicant. Plus I didn't really go to a so called elite school, which is favored (cruel world). I really like the idea of going away to an impoverished area, like the Mississippi Delta or something, and teaching to try and "make a difference," (cliche as that may sound). But I suppose this is more of a dream than a reality. I think the program would just be too hard to crack into, unfortunately.
Third, I've thought fairly heavily about applying to law school. But every person I ever talk to about it, dimwit or not, says it would be the biggest mistake ever. Admittedly, I know little about law or law school: the real estate area intrigues me a little. My only problem here is that I wouldn't know what I would be getting into. It's such a huge investment, monetarily and otherwise (my time!), that it scares me away. What is the payoff? Would I even enjoy the job? It seems to me like a lot of people get into law school only to be disappointed with what becomes of their career (probably because of incorrect expectations), but I suppose that's not too different from any other job.
Fourth: get tougher than before, get resilient, and go for the PHD. It would take and require unusual amounts of sucking up, and I don't know if I'm of that ilk. However, I do have a genuine interest in the field. That's why I got my degree in it in the first place. But it would be an astronomical investment of resources: five years at the minimum. After that, I still wouldn't be "secure." What's next? Tenure? Rushing to publish papers? It seems after all that has happened my youth, relatively speaking, would be gone and I'd be gray. The gravity of the decision is something I can seem to come to terms with. Going for the PHD, to me, is something you have to be 100% in on. I'm not 100% in on, so I just can't decide.
Fifth, I've thought about making a "hard earned" living for a while: getting my hands dirty, maybe working at a factory, and bide my time. This would of course have nothing to do with my degree. But it would give me something to do, keep me on the straight and narrow, while I wait for my opportunity to strike. I would feel a little independence and hopefully have a change to experience and venture out into some non-related endeavors I have always been interested in. This opportunity I see a lot more as self-exploration than career exploration.
Sixth: try and land a job with the degree I have and "move up the chain" so to speak. The harsh reality here is the job market, my lack of work experience, and my regional location. I would be earning less money than what the average four year college graduate would earn (under most likely scenarios), which is "humbling" I guess. Aside from that, most jobs I would have a chance of landing with my degree simply don't interest me, which I suppose isn't too much different from the average graduate. Why did I pick it you ask? That's probably another topic for another day. In order to do something directly related to my field, I would need a PHD.
I know the "correct" answer to this question is the "whatever you want to do" spiel. No one can tell me what to do. I know that. My problem is I cannot decide what I want to do just yet, and I feel as though I'm wasting all my time making the decision. Do I just pick a career and be unhappy, or do I wait years until I figure out what carer will make my happy? A bit of a catch-22. Maybe there's no career that will make me happy, and I might as well accept it. (I guess that's the doom and gloom approach.)